Jiwang tak kena tempat

I have an active mind, constantly thinking, wondering, planning, wishing, regretting..all at once but I’m not the type of person who expresses it all out. I prefer to use music, books, movies as my pengganti. Writing takleh la..blog ni public, bukan private blog. I dun like to use blog to express my inner feelings pon..

If I have been engrossed in my reading, I will capture the character’s character in me as well. Ni yg buat payah ni..mcm dulu when I was so engrossed in the Twilight Saga, I connected to Jacob’s character especially in New Moon. Huhu bayangkan I felt hurt, lonely, sad for dayssss in reality coz the book somehow has affected my mood as well. Sampai terbwk² dlm mimpi, sampai I had trouble sleeping, at one stage I kept on sleeping at 3-4am every single day. GILE.

Currently I’ve just finished reading Time Time Traveller’s Wife and I tell u it’s an awesome book! Walaupun lama nak menghabiskan buku but each time I read the book I will automatically connect to Clare’s character. Her longings for Henry, for a child of her own after 5 ke 6 miscarriages, for a normal life..fuh..sungguh menusuk kalbu. Lelebih lagi terasa when I watched the trailer for the movie after I’ve finished reading the book..lagi laaa mode jiwang tu datang haha. Rachel McAdams mmg sesuai la blakon cite classic camni..and that dude..sapo tah mamat yg berlakon as Henry tu..really looks like Henry kan? (ni soalan kpd org yg sudah membaca buku tu la..huhu)

Dah abeh baca buku TTTW, rasa lost semcm coz I want to find something mellow, sesuai utk mood jiwang. Pastu teringat ahaa..DVD Confessions of a Shopaholic tak abeh khatam lagi. Happy utk seketika waktu coz dpt tgk Luke Brandon heh. Tapi biasala..bila dah layan cite Sophie Kinsella (SK), mesti la akan teringat buku baru dia yg tak beli² lagi ni..haa mula la dpt idea nak carik buku lain.

At first ingat nak gagahkan diri utk TIDAK membeli buku Sophie Kinsella for the time being since harga dia masih lagi at RM79.90 tp takleh tahan laa…I neeeeeed something to make my active mind work. Akhirnya, buku Twenties Girl dalam genggaman..haha tp skang kena ubah mode plak. Takleh jiwang2, kena mode funky and cheeky plak ikut character Lara Lington..

Is it just me or gurls mmg camni? Dulu I was an avid fan of One Tree Hill. Tapi takat layan sampai season 4 je..season 5 and 6 tak terbeli lagi DVDnya..but for each episode and each season I connected myself to Peyton soo much. Peyton kan suka express herself through her drawings and paintings kan..very the berkias she is. Mysterious in some ways but at the end of the day, all she wanted was to have Lucas’s true love. Kan?

Another TV series character that I can connect is in Lipstick Jungle, I connected myself to Nico (the janda yg ada affair dgn Kirby tu haha) not to say that I intend to haf an affair wif some dude la..

The more bermasalah a person is, the more connected I am to that individual. Ntahla..huhu I’m weird. I sense that in my social circle gak. I prefer to befriend those yg ada masalah e.g kewangan, keluarga, relationship dari yg jovial memanjang..and somehow they prefer to befriend me too hehe. Ntah nape tah..tapi kalo ofis politics..please take me out from the loop! Tak kuasa den nak dgr.

Right now..I’m connecting soo much to the latest Agnes Monica’s single titled Teruskanlah. Layan la..sedap lagu ni.

Bila tengok VC dia..lagi la rasa cam..aaah we’re in the same shoes!
I think it’s a hormon imbalance…period dah delay 4 hari. Sila jgn suruh saya pegi ke Guardian terdekat utk membeli pregnancy test ye. I will do it when I feel it’s right.